| Saturday, October 31st, 2009 |
| 12:14 pm |
i miss dave
so much i want to die a phone call is just not enough at this point . |
| Friday, September 11th, 2009 |
| 4:41 pm |
o man
so bff is in prison cindy and i are getting him out shits rough |
| Wednesday, September 2nd, 2009 |
| 2:29 am |
wow
this has been the summer from hell. |
| Tuesday, July 14th, 2009 |
| 9:48 am |
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| Friday, July 10th, 2009 |
| 2:28 am |
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| Saturday, June 13th, 2009 |
| 1:24 am |
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| Friday, June 5th, 2009 |
| 1:18 am |
motherfucker im ill
so iv basically been hurt from all angles by many people but at least i know who my real friends are i hung out with carmine today and went to a practice for stripes are for lions i really enjoyed it i really love working with other bands and Carmine is just a really fantastic guy like wow |
| Sunday, May 24th, 2009 |
| 11:24 pm |
so levi decided he doesnt want to date which is good sort of because i was going to tell him i didnt think i wanted to date anyone right now i really like him though and i feel stupid about all this becuase im hurting over so many things right now and i just want someone to be there for me it would have been great if he could have just been there |
| Wednesday, May 20th, 2009 |
| 1:22 am |
Im so sick...
of liking someone ,who could give a shit less who i still cant be up to par to who i probably wont ever impress and iv tried so hard to and who pretty much lies to me everytime about it im not an idiot im not a valley girl who will keep chasing after you im not dumb , or cute,or blonde , i dont make sure i have pretty beachy curly hair ,or wear cute cloths for you , im not pretty all the time ,or HAPPY ALL THE TIME,OR FAKE ,im not a barbie,i can't be that bottom line im not what you thought ,and im not what your looking for so how about you just give it up and tell me already i have flaws ,and if thats the reason you don't want to date me then do me the favor and don't |
| Monday, May 11th, 2009 |
| 11:59 am |
i want to be done with school
i have 2 finals today and a make up test and im handing in a paper i have one final tomorrow and im handing in another paper between then and thursday i have work tomorrow and wednesday i am exhausted cause i closed last night i miss my friends i miss ginatorimary alot i miss having someone to hug and kiss and make things for and give presents to i miss warmth |
| Tuesday, May 5th, 2009 |
| 1:31 pm |
wawwaaaaaaaaawaaaaaaawaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
im sick of talking about the same bullshit i wish i didnt care about anyone but myself that would totally help me out doing what i want that would be awesome i have this conversation with Marcel very often that if everyone just lived for themselves and did what they wanted not to impress others or to one up others or anything for anyone else just self improvement and helpful tasks and to help others because they wanted to it would make life so much easier and many people would be so much happier then they are now however this cant happen we all have to do things we dont want to do i just have to do alot of them im so tired of being alone |
| Sunday, May 3rd, 2009 |
| 12:10 am |
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| Sunday, April 12th, 2009 |
| 2:00 pm |
out of the island and on to the high way
my life has been not good lately and now i have many papers due im confused about everything i just feel weird,and vibeless and i really miss my old life and i need a god damn normal boy around this place NORMAL |
| Tuesday, March 24th, 2009 |
| 11:03 pm |
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| Monday, March 9th, 2009 |
| 1:18 am |
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| Saturday, February 28th, 2009 |
| 4:17 pm |
i want...
to get better so i can eat foods such as: pizza boston market tacos chipotle meatball parm jd chicken steak any vegetable squash chocolate cereal i also would really ike to be able to drink.... coffee tea shirley temples lemonade vodka malibu mike's hard o and i would also prefer drinking them out of cups not out of straws i miss my friends because i have not seen them in a week cindy<3levi<3justin<3adam<3jack<3lauren(w ho is home from college with dylan)<3MIKE<3imissyouallsofuckingmuch Current Mood:  angry |
| Wednesday, February 25th, 2009 |
| 1:40 pm |
: (
im sick and im sad mostly because my mouth is the swollen massive cold sores of death that have erupted from a fever and a swollen gland i had im on antibiotics and crap for the sores i can barely drink or eat we might have to cancel the show ... |
| Tuesday, February 10th, 2009 |
| 2:57 am |
i officially
have no fucking idea what im doing no idea! i know who i love who i dont who my real friends are i know who loves me who likes me and who just plain wants me (which is strange as hell) but i dont know what i....am...doing.... i know what i should do but i am so caught up i cannot i miss him. |
| Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009 |
| 2:49 am |
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| Tuesday, January 27th, 2009 |
| 1:10 am |
...many funerals..
i cannot understand myself anymore you know when you first see someone and for some reason you just know you want them in your life you dont know how , or why,or what role they will play but you just know you want them there well thats how iv felt about this one person since iv known them and iv been totally ignoring it pretending it wasnt there and that i didnt feel that way i didnt want to drag them down or anything but recently i came to grips with the fact that this person matters and im just hoping that maybe ... maybe i matter to them too only because i cannot be hurt or let down again its all to much at this point but i havent felt strongly about something like this for a long time where i was completly decided with out a doubt certain this doesnt mean things will be different because chances are they won't iv been in love with the same person for years and that won't ever change no matter how they feel about me but perhaps there is some hope left after all something fresh i just cant get too high up |
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